So tomorrow marks the official beginning of my Junior year in college. Last week I was not excited at all but I stepped foot on campus on Saturday night and I got excited suddenly. I guess it finally hit me that classes & school were officially about to be in session.Downtown Atlanta had officially been invaded by Georgia state students. It was exciting. I am excited to see what this year will bring. My freshman year I learned about living on my own & for the first time having responsibility of myself and my education. Sophomore year I grew. It was also a lot more pleasant than my freshman year. Thank God! Crying yourself to sleep almost every night is not what’s up. I’m excited to see what changes and experiences I go through my Junior year. 

this post is called ‘smh’ because that’s all I can do when I think about this shit. It is truly imperative in life that you check your surroundings and those you call ‘friend’ or shit, even ‘acquatiance’. (right now I don’t give a FUCK about spelling!) Lemme tell you, bitches are too phony & fake these days. As far as I’m concerned hardly no one is to be trusted!!! Especially not no catty ass, insecure females. I won’t ever befriend a insecure bitch ever in life. I wanna make new friends and I hope most of them have something hanging in their pants. I dont’ want anymore friends with external and internal plumbing! I don’t want anymore female friends. I can’t take their backbiting, gossiping, having my name in their fuckin mouth! I’mma real ass female, so if you wanna know some shit then all you gotta do is ask and I’mma tell yes or no. I see no reason in lying when I know I did it. That’s a part of being grown and mature. Smh, I could go on and on about this cuz I’m so pissed. These fake ass bitches gets no love from me. Lemme tell you, goin back & tellin folks what I said on MY FUCKING TWITTER. Ain’t that some shit?! Super petty. In a way, I’m surprised at the person who is saying these things. All I know is, this person will be gettin a ‘hi’ & ‘goodbye’ from me. nothin more. nothing less. I really, really need more male friends. they don’t be on that petty shit or gossiping or keeping up drama. I just need some cool ass guys to hang around who ain’t tryna fuck a girl either. Some cool ass guys I can chill with and that’ll look out for me. That’s what I need. Fuck females and their petty shit.I’m off this subject. 

I haven’t been on this thing for 2 months! I’m currently listening to songs off Chris Brown’s sexy self [LOL] latest album, F.A.M.E. & let me tell you, I’m LOVING what I’ve heard so far, all the tracks I’ve played are hot,hOT,HOT!!!! But anywho, life has been VERY busy for me. I just read my post about 2010 & I can say I’ve pretty much did what I said I was going to do. I’ve become very busy this semester incorporating academics and getting involved on campus. I’ve also found a summer job & I have a interview in a couple weeks. And besides math, my grades are looking good. If I must say, I’m doin the damn thing! But good things are happening to me and I can say this is because my relationship God has grown closer. I’m still no where near perfect! But getting closer to Him is a process that requires baby steps & A LOT of prayer! I’ve expanded my social circle a bit. I love my friends I had before this semester, but sometimes its always nice to have other friends that you can kinda get a breather. Hanging around new people also helps you grow because you learn new things from those people. If you hang around the same people, how can you grow & learn? You cant! At least thats my opinion. And…..tada! Its safe to say I’ve got a new ‘boo’. I don’t wanna get too to excited yet. I’ll wait till the summer to really judge how this is gonna go when we can hang out more because he goes to a different school. This is something about me that I’ve discovered, while I want a boyfriend, currently I wouldn’t mind having a boyfriend who goes to a different school. I have never thought it was healthy for two people to constantly be around each  other, its ok to spend time together but to have a life outside of each other as well. This would eliminate that issue and that way when we saw each other, we’d spend our time just enjoying each other’s company instead of arguing and all that bullshit. Or at least, thats what I’ve envisioned in my head! But of course life doesn’t always go as planned. Getting to this point was rough and a hard struggle, but it was just me having labor pains so I could ‘birth’ this me that stands before you today. A young woman who is almost able to hold her own, who is truly grateful for all the things she has, who is beyond confident NOT cocky BUT C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-T, strong, gaining her way towards independence, whose heart is still beating & didn’t turn hard or into stone, whose willing to open her heart for the right person, whose graceful & elegant, whose slowly but surely turning into a social butterfly, and whose heart is in God. Who is HERE! 

sippin on this drank shawty….got my hormones ragin’ off the mah fuckin meter!!!! idk y I drink when I know just a SIP makes me horny. 

days later or the day after your not even thinking about sex & get what I call a “after shock”. Its like a semi-orgasmic feeling that makes my whole body clinch up in a heat of desire. thats how I know the sex I had was truly good.

so,even though he’s been out for a minute, tank is now my favorite male artist. hands down! fuck a usher. YES I SAID IT!!!! While all his songs are either about sex (mostly about sex), how a woman is leaving him & he wants her to stay or how much he loves a woman, he makes the subject of his song, especially sex, very grown and sexy. there is something that makes me cringe about sexually explicit music ( and not in a good way), it doesn’t turn me on whatsoever. but I can listen to tank or r.kelly and be instantly turned out. its the tantalizing beats, head banging bass and mainly, the voice that turns me on. trey songz does make sex music, but its nothing compared to tank! his music doesn’t have an affect on me. tank…ha! idk if I should be sharing this piece of info, but if a nigga wanna get me, all he’d have to do is put on a tank playlist & i’d be in my zone, ready for a lil somethin somethin.

this is good news, well for me at least. my constant 24/7 horniness is gone…for now. lets see how long it lasts. goodnight.

tehehe. the name of my most recent playlist I made. I made it in my ipod.I’m currently testing it out, its on shuffle & I must say, its doing its job! Definitely wishing I had someone here just to kiss and cuddle with. I still need affection even though I’m not having sex. I mean, what girl doesn’t want affection and attention? Anywho my playlist ranges from the oh so talented man whose music oozes nothing but sex hence my playlist name ‘pure sex’, the proclaimed baby music maker, R.Kelly to Jahiem’s “Find my Way Back” only b/c I find the beat so sexy to a couple Keyshia Cole songs, which are off her last 2 albums to some more R.Kelly to R.Kelly jr. Trey Songz (still nothin like the real McCoy!) to Janet Jackson (Anytime,Any Place) to the lovely unforgettable Aaliyah (RIP) to more R.Kelly to Silk’s ‘Freak Me’ to H-Town’s ‘Knockin Da Boots’ to Usher to Faith Evans to Jamie Foxx to The Dream and finally some more R.Kelly. Sound pretty good so far? Yea, I think so!